Father Blackwood

Ask the Apostate

Why is starting the hardest part?

The short answer Because a still thing keeps all its resistance at the front. The hardest part of moving a stalled cart is the first inch—breaking it out of stillness—and once it’s rolling it almost carries itself. You dread starting because you feel, in advance, the whole weight of the task; but you don’t have to move the whole weight, only break the stillness. Give it the first shove—the first sentence, the first step—and momentum, which wasn’t available a moment ago, quietly takes over most of the load.

The longer answer

Put your shoulder to a heavy stalled cart and you learn the physics of beginning in your body. The first push is enormous—you strain, you dig in, the thing sits there dead and immovable and gives you nothing—and then, at some point, it yields an inch, and another, grudging and slow, and then, quite suddenly, it’s rolling, and the effort drops away to almost nothing, and you’re walking behind it with a hand on the back, keeping a thing moving that a moment ago would not move at all. The whole difficulty was concentrated in the first few feet. Once it rolls, momentum carries what your muscles couldn’t.

That gap—between how hard it is to start a still thing and how easy it is to keep a moving one—is the whole answer to why starting is the hardest part. A stationary object hoards all its resistance right at the front, in the breaking of stillness. And you, standing before the task you’ve been putting off, feel that concentrated, front-loaded resistance in advance: you feel the entire weight of the whole undone thing pressing back before you’ve moved it an inch, and it’s crushing, and so you don’t push.

But you’ve misread what’s being asked. You think you have to summon the force to move the whole cart the whole distance, and no wonder you can’t—nobody could feel that much strength on demand. You only have to break the stillness. You only have to move it the first inch—write the first bad sentence, make the first call, pull the first weed—and once it’s rolling, momentum, which simply was not available while the thing sat still, comes into being and takes over most of the load. The task you dreaded turns out to push itself, once pushed.

So the trick of starting isn’t finding the strength for the task. It’s finding the much smaller strength for the first inch, and trusting a thing you can’t feel in advance: that a moving version of this will be far lighter than the dead weight you’re staring at. You’re not weak for finding the start so hard. The start really is the hard part—it’s just a much smaller part than it feels.

Whether the cart, once rolling, always reaches where you meant it, I can’t promise—some come to rest halfway and want pushing again. But nothing rolls that was never shoved off its stillness. It may be so. It may not.