You are not here to transcend the world. You are here to learn how to carry it.

A former cleric, writing on the physical and ordinary as the site of the sacred — matter and spirit as one ascending thing, after Teilhard.

Ask the Apostate

How do you make peace with a life that didn't turn out the way you planned?

Stop grieving the plan and move into the house you actually built.

Essay

Winding the Clock

The key, the ratchet, and the edge just short of too far: winding a house's heartbeat by feel.

Ask the Apostate

Is it wrong that I'm starting to forget their voice?

The fading is the toll for keeping them in a living mind, not a recording.

Essay

The Whetstone

Water, stone, and the two-coin angle a hand comes to believe: the patient restoring of an edge.

Ask the Apostate

Why do some chores feel like prayer, even if you don't believe in anything?

The feeling isn't imported from a belief—the chore makes it.

Essay

Whittling

Not making a thing but removing everything that isn't it—subtraction as the only honest move.

Ask the Apostate

How do you stop feeling guilty about something you can't take back?

Stop paying a closed account, and let the guilt change what you do next.

Essay

Pulling Weeds

Down at the crown where the stem meets the soil, and the small clean joy of a taproot drawn out whole.

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Word, when there is word.

Not often, and not soon — the writing comes slowly. No list, no letters in between. There is the feed, if you'd rather.